Music

Okay, the video is scary because there are clowns in it. But I <3 this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7T88NfxVJdc

I said, she heard

Me - I bought a futon!
Allison - You bottled Whose Line?

Yes, I now own a 4th piece of furniture, a futon. I was looking at buying an air mattress, but a good one, with a pump, is about $50. My futon was $139. And it works as a couch, as well as a place for guests to sleep. I don't have to inflate or deflate it, either.

I am working on building it as we speak, I am just waiting on my landlord's son to bring me a phillips head screwdriver. I am taking this break as an opportunity to blog, and to eat some soup.

I'm fighting off a sinus infection. I went to Dr. Owens office today and got an antibiotic. I should be in the clear before I go to Lebanon to visit Lacy, Jay and Breanna.



Isn't she beautiful?

Customer Service Week at work is off to a good start. We had plenty of participation in our Professional Attire dress up day. Tomorrow is Team Jersey day, so I need to decide whether to wear Penguins jersey or my Steelers jersey.

Okay, time to eat, even thought I am not really hungry. I hate being sick.

Merry Part and Blessed Be!

Trueblood

I started watching Trueblood via Netflix last night. I really, really like it. I'm completely hooked on the opening theme. As a fan of the books, I’ve been really pleased with the translation from book to show so far. The first two episodes were about the first third of the first book. I like Anna Paquin as Sookie. I like the guy they have playing Sam, he’s one of my favorite characters in the books. I can't wait to get the next disc.

I wanna do bad things with you...

And it's only Tuesday

Kim's been gone two days, and I'm already beginning to appreciate why I didn't apply for a Team Lead position. There's a lot of organization necessary, and it's very disappointing when people don't do well on a call monitoring. Especially people you know are capable of doing well.

Gearing up for Customer Service Week. Duty calls.

Merry Part and Blessed Be!

I love Pittsburgh

It's been a busy couple of days. On Friday night after work, I drove down to Pittsburgh to visit Grant and Wendy, who I've only seen once since they moved back to PA. I got to meet their pretty birdies, Chloe and Baby. (Chloe likes me okay, Baby thinks I am in some way a threat.) We rented Watchmen, which we had all watched in the theater but wanted to see again. We also watched SuperBad, and McLovin was still the best part. On Sunday we walked around Little Italy because there was a festival. Wendy had some tiramisu and I had Italian ice. My Garmin got me in and out of the city just fine, although I had to trick it a little to get it to take me north on 79 rather than out 28. Taking 28 is shorter, but since I was driving at night, I'd rather stick to the big highways.

I also have a theory that the Steelers aren't winning because I'm not watching the games. I may have to find out how much basic cable is. Most of the games are on CBS or NBC.

Hope everyone is enjoying the fall weather, there's definitely a chill in the air here today and I want a cup of hot apple cider, and a purring black cat in my lap.

Merry Part and Blessed Be!

I had a dream

About being happy. All my friends were near me, we could watch movies or play games together whenever we felt like it. And I was with someone special... it was wonderful to lie in his arms and be loved and cherished. I remember lying in a huge bed, with the sheets and blankets all tangled up around us. A lot of the details are fading, but I remember being happy and scared it wouldn't last.

So I'm in a conundrum this morning. I see a pattern. It's becoming a cycle. And we've tried to break the pattern, but now the attempt to break the pattern is becoming a part of the cycle. I don't want to lose this person. The thought of losing him makes me very unhappy. But at the same time, there's all these reasons we keep trying to stay apart. It's too complicated, we don't have the same goals, our personalities are very different, etc. etc. And at the same time, I love being around him, I love talking to to him. When I have the opportunity, I love touching him and being touched by him. And I don't need him just for the attention, because there are others who tell me I'm beautiful and special. And he's going through some things himself, and I want to be there and help him as a friend.

I find myself wondering if the way to break the pattern is to just suck up my fear, and give it a real try. But I know we're both afraid we'll just fall into a different pattern then, and maybe we'd be content, and neither of us would be looking for the person who will make us truly happy, the person we're meant to spend our lives with. Maybe though, we need to look at why we are continuously drawn back together, rather than all the reasons we try to stay just friends and not more.

Having an oooh, kitty moment: It's Fall. Officially tomorrow, but the temperature at night and the falling leaves in my driveway tells me it's here. In the Wheel of the Year, it's a time for endings making way for new beginnings. It always reminds me of a specific new beginning, the start of the school year. Samhain will be here before I know it. Maybe I can get some good advice then.

Back to the original topic: My wisest counselors are telling me not to jump into things with this friend. I need to respect the decisions he's making for himself and give him space to figure out what he wants. And I fear him wanting me almost as much as I fear him NOT wanting me...

Merry Part and Blessed Be

This is my cat

She is currently sleeping on my lap. More pics when I take 'em

Back from vacation

Full details and pics later, but for now, enjoy this:

Looking ahead, not looking back

Today I go to sign my divorce papers. Then in a little over 110 days, it will be official. Then I can go back to being Suzanne Huffman. Then I can really start my new life.

I can go where I want to go, be who I want to be. I think that's a line in a song... I don't remember which song. Well, it's my song now.

In other cool news, Alison Tyler has put a story of mine up on one of her satellite blogs. This blog, H is for Harlot, exists to showcase longer stories from different challenges or contests she puts on her main blog, Trollop With a Laptop.

Oh, and I also signed up for Netflix. I don't need any suggestions of things to watch though, I already have 70+ items in my queue.

Hope you are having a happy Thursday!

Merry Part and Blessed Be

Tomtember 1st

We pulled a surprise on my amazing boss today. I'm really, really glad he has a good sense of humor. We had a running joke about how he wouldn't wear a Seneca T-shirt for our current promotion. As part of the gag, someone photoshopped his head onto a pic of the t-shirt. Then it escalated to copies of this pic appearing at many many desks in the Call Center.

Today, we all showed up to our meeting wearing T-shirts with the picture. We also provided cake and a card to say how grateful we are that he puts up with our crap everyday.

I have been playing some World of Warcraft again. Tonight I cleared a bunch of things from my bank vault and put them on the auction house. I am hoping to have enough money to get the last part for my Mekgineer's Chopper if all the auctions sell.

Also, I have submitted an entry for Alison Tyler's latest contest. You can check it out here. Once it's up that is, for understandable reasons, AT must approve all comments before they appear on the blog. The contest ends 9/5, so the poll for voting will probably go up 9/6. I'll be in Myrtle Beach at that point, so if you think of it, please go and vote for me.

That's all for tonight, I am going to bed.

Merry Part and Blessed Be!

Sneaky Police!

I got a ticket on my way back to Salamanca from Edinboro today. The cop was on the bridge over the highway, next to the exit. I didn't see him until it was way too late. I didn't even have a chance to slow down and possibly not get hit for as high a speed.

I had a good weekend, Al, Austin and I ate at Max and Erma's in Erie last night. Leftovers from which made an excellent brunch today. I got a couple new shirts. I am excited because I leave for Myrtle Beach in less than 5 days.

I have a lot to do this week to get ready. I want to clean off my desk at work so PTodd doesn't have to look at my squalor while I am gone. I also need to leave my house as clean as possible because I am planning to get a kitten from Kelli shortly after I get back. I don't want to bring her home to a mess. I also want to get my washer hooked up so I don't have to go to the laundromat.

Busy week ahead, but I'm looking forward to it.

My Horoscope for today

From Astrology.com, via IGoogle

"Every now and then, the universe steps in, makes an executive decision, and forces you to take a right when you were absolutely sure you'd be taking a left. This is one of those times, and as sensitive as you are, you'll realize it as soon as you open your eyes this morning. So when you end up someplace you weren't supposed to be anywhere near, chatting with someone you feel an immediate affinity towards, you'll get it. You were supposed to meet."

Today doesn't feel like that day to me, but who knows by the end of it? I've definitely felt that way a lot of days. Like someone is put in your path for a purpose. There are signs, and the universe, Gods, Goddesses, whatever you choose to call them, try to point us in the right direction and teach us, with signs, and advice from friends, etc. But sometimes we're stubborn, or we think we know better than the Gods, and that's when things get taken out of our hands.

I'm reading All One Wicca by Kaatryn MacMorgan-Douglas. It's pretty interesting so far. Very down to earth, easy to read, with a sense of humor.

Church of Universal Eclectic Wicca Affirmation of Faith (can be found in All One Wicca and at the CUEW website)

The Affirmation of Acknowledgment:

I: I acknowledge the presence of other faiths on my planet, indeed, right here in my city/town/village. I acknowledge that the followers of these faiths feel as strongly, maybe more so, than I do about mine.

II: I forgive the other faiths and wipe clean the slate between us. I cannot hold a person responsible for the acts of their faith, I cannot hold a faith at fault for individual practitioners. It is not my place to convert, or otherwise alter a person's religion. I invite discussion of beliefs without judgment of those holding them.

III: I acknowledge that I may be wrong, and I have found comfort in the fact that I may be right.


I personally really like part III. You don't have to be wrong for me to be right. I don't have to stomp what another person believes into the ground for me to take comfort in my faith.

In other news, Duamuteffe has started and Etsy shop. Please check it out!



Buy adorable handmade stuff!

Merry Part and Blessed Be!

Naked Sweat Drips

That's a Scrubs reference, the title. JD is listening to Molly, played by Heather Graham, talk about working out, while he talking to his girlfriend on the phone. He repeats the words "naked sweat drips" and then tries to tell his girlfriend it's a new band he's listening to.

I am covered in sweat drips because I started working out again this morning. I used one of my Yoga DVDs rather than the Wii Fit because apparently I need more AA batteries. I forgot how hard the lower body workout was. And I'm definitely out of shape, I couldn't even pull off a decent Warrior II.

I am thinking about taking a walk, since I woke up early and it's still relatively cool out.

I should also work on some writing this morning, as I have a story submitted at the Fish Tank now that I would like to send to AT before September 1st.

Which is sneaking up on me at an alarming rate! What happened to August? I am hoping I don't just forget all these best laid plans and go back to bed.

That's all for now folks. Merry Part and Blessed Be!

The Spirit of Jazz

I am waiting for a load of laundry to dry and listening to the jazz station on Mom and Dad's digital cable. I think I need some jazz CDs, they would be awesome to listen to while writing.

I got the new loan for the Toyota today, Northwest is sending out the check to Toyota today. After that, only a few steps left in this dance.

Plans tonight: go home, hopefully play some WoW. Maybe work on some writing. I've got a few old pieces I might pull out and try to finish and polish up.

Plans tomorrow: Blissfully nothing so far. It's great running and seeing everyone, but it's also exhausting!

Merry Part and Blessed Be

Crashing...

From an excellent "weekend." I worked Saturday and Sunday and then went out to Edinboro. I got to see Wendy and Grant on Tuesday when I took Al and Austin down to Pittsburgh for their big appointment to get Austin his conditional permanent status in the states. We went to the Pittsburgh Zoo after and Wendy and Grant met us there. I really enjoyed seeing the Siberian Tigers, and the PPG Aquarium is great too. (I saw Nemo!)



Then on Wednesday, we went to CEDAR POINT! I have only been to Cedar Point once, and it was after my sophomore prom. The weather was miserable and rainy, and most of the coasters weren't running. The weather yesterday was perfect. I rode 6 coasters, including Top Thrill Dragster I also rode Maverick, Raptor, Iron Dragon and Disaster Transport.

All the coasters were amazing, and I had a great time with Allison, Austin, Jon and Tom. Jon and Tom kept me entertained in long coaster lines with plenty of singing.

We also rode this:



Which is called Maxair and was very fun. You can actually see me on the ride (Thanks, Al!) my hair is over my face. To my right with the t-shirt on his head is Jon. (He was trying to avoid sunburn)

I wanna feel something

If you're telling me I'm not on fire
You're just preaching to the choir
I've gotten dull as old barbed wire from living
Last night I watched the evening news
It was the same ol' nothing new
It should have cut me right in two
But it didn't
I don't know why it didn't

But I wanna feel something
Something that's a real something
That moves me, that proves to me I'm still alive
I wanna heart that beats and bleeds
A heart that's busting at the seams
I wanna care, I wanna cry, I wanna scream
I just wanna feel something

If you're telling me that's just how it is
I don't buy it cause once I was kissed
By a red-headed girl with cherry lips
On her porch when I was sixteen
And I felt it somewhere in my soul and time stood still and I couldn't let go
I can't tell you cause I don't know how I got so cold
When did I get so cold

I just wanna feel something
Something that's a real something
That moves me, that proves to me I'm still alive
Run my fingers through your fingers, across your face and through your hair
And close my eyes and breathe you in like air
I just wanna feel something

I hate that I'm jaded and I make you cry
But still you stick around me, only God knows why
Damn it all to hell, I'm done
Cause I don't like what Ive become
So come here, baby
Come here, baby

Trace Adkins, Dangerous Man

This came up on my song shuffle this evening and some of the lyrics hit me hard. I feel like the best parts of me have been shut down for a long time. When did I get so cold? Well, we know the answer to that.

I'm melting, I'm melting. Oh what a world. :-)

Merry Part and Blessed Be

New Alarm Clock

I have a new Alarm Clock. It's a crow that lives outside my house. He seems to know when I need to get up for work, and unlike my phone, he has no snooze button.

According to Animal Speak by Ted Andrews, Crows represent the magic of creation. They are the messengers of magic.

At work, my head aches and my throat is sore and hurts when I swallow. I am going to knock this out with Airborne, because I have things I want to do this week, and I don't want to get anyone sick!

Listening to Bob FM...

Merry Part and Blessed Be

Sonic Death Monkey

How did I not know that my favorite Lush fragrance is named for Jack Black's band in High Fidelity? Can someone explain this to me?

:-)

Catching up with the Internet

see more Funny Graphs

Been gone since Saturday morning. Al and Austin are suffering with dial-up right now, so I didn't get online all weekend. Currently listening to my favorite Erie radio station, Bob FM, 94.7.

The graph goes out to my friends who are, have, or will, work in retail/customer service.

I had a great weekend. I really enjoyed the Snow Water Grove ritual on Lughnassad on Sunday. Al, Austin and I had a great time at Presque Isle on Monday. I'd like to say thanks to all the lifeguards at Beach 6 for providing such sweet sweet eye candy. :-)

Merry Part and Blessed Be

Weekend Update

No, it's not Saturday Night Live.

I got my new cell phone yesterday, it makes me happy. I can take pictures with it. :-) Today I am going to a baby shower, and then a wedding, and then to Edinboro. I am going to be at my first Snow Water Grove Ritual on Sunday, which I am really looking forward to.

Life Is Good.

Merry Part and Blessed Be