I wanna feel something

If you're telling me I'm not on fire
You're just preaching to the choir
I've gotten dull as old barbed wire from living
Last night I watched the evening news
It was the same ol' nothing new
It should have cut me right in two
But it didn't
I don't know why it didn't

But I wanna feel something
Something that's a real something
That moves me, that proves to me I'm still alive
I wanna heart that beats and bleeds
A heart that's busting at the seams
I wanna care, I wanna cry, I wanna scream
I just wanna feel something

If you're telling me that's just how it is
I don't buy it cause once I was kissed
By a red-headed girl with cherry lips
On her porch when I was sixteen
And I felt it somewhere in my soul and time stood still and I couldn't let go
I can't tell you cause I don't know how I got so cold
When did I get so cold

I just wanna feel something
Something that's a real something
That moves me, that proves to me I'm still alive
Run my fingers through your fingers, across your face and through your hair
And close my eyes and breathe you in like air
I just wanna feel something

I hate that I'm jaded and I make you cry
But still you stick around me, only God knows why
Damn it all to hell, I'm done
Cause I don't like what Ive become
So come here, baby
Come here, baby

Trace Adkins, Dangerous Man

This came up on my song shuffle this evening and some of the lyrics hit me hard. I feel like the best parts of me have been shut down for a long time. When did I get so cold? Well, we know the answer to that.

I'm melting, I'm melting. Oh what a world. :-)

Merry Part and Blessed Be

One Way Ticket (Because I Can)

Standing on the border
Looking out into the great unknown
I can feel my heart beating faster as I step out on my own
There's a new horizon and the promise of favorable wind
I'm heading out tonight, traveling light
I'm gonna start all over again

And buy a one way ticket on a west bound train
See how far I can go (because I can)
I'm gonna go out dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don't know (because I can)
I will face the world around me
Knowing that Im strong enough to let you go
And I will fall in love again
Because I can

Gonna climb the mountain
And look the eagle in the eye
I won't let fear clip my wings and tell me how high I can fly
How could I have ever believed
That love had to be so blind
When freedom was waiting, down at the station
All I had to do was make up my mind

And buy a one way ticket on a west bound train
See how far I can go (because I can)
I'm gonna go out dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don't know (because I can)
I will face the world around me
Knowing that I'm strong enough to let you go
And I will fall in love again
Because I can

Well, I have walked through the fire
And crawled on my knees through the valley of the shadow of doubt
Then the truth came shining like a light on me and now I can see my way out

I'm gonna buy a one way ticket on a west bound train
See how far I can go (because I can)
I'm gonna go out dancing in the pouring rain
And talk to someone I don't know
I'm gonna buy a one way ticket on a west bound train
Gonna have my breakfast with some pink champagne
I'm gonna sail the ocean, I'm gonna spread my wings
I'm gonna climb that mountain, gonna do everything

Merry Part and Blessed Be

Hello I'm Gone

Somebody's waiting back home in Dallas
With no idea where she has gone
Got her suitcase all packed up
In the back of the pickup
Got her red knee-high Luccheses on
She's on any old two-lane
Westbound she knows
'Cause she was chasing her shadow
When the sun finally rose
Man, she's just running
It don't matter where
She figures she'll know where she is when she's there

But she didn't leave nothin' she can't do without
That's enough reason for leavin' no doubt
She rolls down the window, turns up a song
Laughs at the weather and says, hello, I'm gone

Plans for the weekend - wash up new dishes, do some grocery shopping, possibly go to Frewsburg to check out kittens, go to the Farm for a birthday party.

Merry Part and Blessed Be

Cool things to hear

I called my mom tonight, after talking to my brother, and in the background I could hear my little sister yelling and carrying on. I asked Mom what had Keeker (Keely) so excited, and Mom said she was singing along with the Rolling Stones. Then I could hear Keely, plain as day shouting "Honky Tonk Woman!" in the background. I have the coolest little sister. :-)

I met a gin soaked, bar-room queen in Memphis,
She tried to take me upstairs for a ride.
She had to heave me right across her shoulder
'Cause I just can't seem to drink you off my mind.

It's the honky tonk women
Gimme, gimme, gimme the honky tonk blues.

I laid a divorcee in New York City,
I had to put up some kind of a fight.
The lady then she covered me with roses,
She blew my nose and then she blew my mind.

It's the honky tonk women
Gimme, gimme, gimme the honky tonk blues.

(Yeah!) It's the honky tonk women.
Gimme, gimme, gimme the honky tonk blues.

(Yeah!) It's the honky tonk women.
Gimme, gimme, gimme the honky tonk blues

Live this Life

Big and Rich - Life this Live

Met a man on the street last night
Said his name was Jesus
Met a man on the street last night
Thought he was crazy till I watched him heal a blind man
Watched him heal a blind man now I see

I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore
Then I will walk yes I will walk
With patience through that open door
I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go
I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore

Met a girl in a chair with wheels
But no one else would see her
Met a girl in a chair with wheels
Everyone was so afraid
To even look down on her
And she just spread her little wings and flew away yeah

I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore
Then I will walk yes I will walk
With patience through that open door
I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go
I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore

Met a kid on a bridge last night
Contemplating freedom
Met a kid on a bridge last night
And he said
I'm tired of this maddening life
And I'm ready to go meet Jesus
And I said he's a friend of mine
Met him just last night
And it's alright
Yeah it's all right
Yeah

I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore
Then I will walk yes I will walk
With patience through that open door
I have no fears, angels follow me wherever I may go
I live this life until this life won't let me live here anymore
Live here anymore

Met a man on the street last night
Said his name was Jesus
Met a man on the street last night

I just re-downloaded Horse of Different Color last night. I forgot about this song. The melody is very haunting, it gets stuck in your head. It's on my myspace page now if you want to check it out.

Merry Part and Blessed Be

The Change

One hand
Reaches out
And pulls a lost soul from harm
While a thousand more go unspoken for
And they say what good have you done
By saving just this one
It's like whispering a prayer
In the fury of a storm.

(chorus)
And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know that it will not change me.

This heart
Still believes
That love and mercy still exist.
While all the hatred rage and so many say
That love is all but pointless in madness such as this
It's like trying to stop a fire
With the moisture from a kiss.

As long as one heart still holds on
Then hope is never really gone.

What I do is so
This world will know
That it will not change me

Borrowing a blog tactic from Al - sorry to have missed all the fun at the Farm this weekend, but Jeff and I got to spend some much appreciated quality time together. Just thought of this song the other day, hadn't heard it in forever and couldn't remember anything but the chorus, so here it is. You can hear it on my myspace page.

Merry Part and Blessed Be!